仁顯皇后的男人 Queen In-Hyun’s Man
another kdrama recommended by gsjs. pretty good but a little ridiculous at the end, though I won’t lie about loving cheesy Hollywood-esque happy endings. loved the blend of the light-hearted and the traumatic elements, and most of all, the time traveling theme. nothing’s as romantic as 邂逅ing somebody from a completely separate time and space. the accidental encounter, helplessly falling for somebody whom you know you might not have a future with, leaving behind everything you knew for somebody whom you have limited knowledge of, and then having to pay the price of changing the history with the memory shared by loved ones. is it more unbearable to remember or to choose to forget. whatever rhetorical question that was. it’ll make more sense if you’ve seen the drama I promise :)
說半天到底我還是很愛亂思考的浪漫女孩. 不想再愛這種話是騙人的. an elder asked me at dinner today, whether I’m a positive person or a negative person. I’ve been pretty positive recently about everything, whether it’s my future plan or my daily routine. so I said I’m a positive person. then I thought, for the past couple of months, I’ve been quite indifferent at times, just a few months ago I was in grief about someone, and half a year ago, I tried hard to be indifferent so that I can control my emotions better. on average, I’m pretty neutral. so I said most of the time, I’m neither positive nor negative. then he said “ohhh that’s terrible; that’s just sad. please try to be positive. it’s inevitable to be negative at times, but if you’re neutral all the time, what’s the point in life? you lose the opportunity to feel happy again. it’s like you get hurt once, and decided that you’ll never love again.” 唉 =_=
this is not just about love, it’s about an attitude towards everything in life.
to emerse yourself in frustration is too unbearable, sometimes I just block out the negative feelings and that’s how I stay sane. the result, though, is that I block out the positive feelings too. 平平淡淡好阿 至少不用聽到吵架聲的時候就想尖叫丟東西. it turned out that I couldn’t selectively ignore just the bad things in my life. I ended up feeling, and thus, caring a little less about everything. the truth is, though, that I go in and out of caring and not caring, 到底還是在乎阿. 所以人生就是不能怕受傷 是吧? 幸福是需要代價的 不然就不是幸福了.